I have been so bored ,so upset and so disappointed with everything these days but this must come to an end.I hate wasting my time like this and I hate complaining.We all have regrets,but sorrow doesn't solve a thing.
I have decided to take my camera with me at school because there are times when I see really interesting things,but I don't have it with me.
+ Although the quality of my pictures doesn't compare to other fancier and more expensive cameras,this is what I've got for the moment and the truth is that Fuji kicks ass!

Now a nice song for you: [link]

The sound of holding on - almost a whisper
The sigh of broken hearts - a quiet cry
The rain upon your face
Brings gravity and grace
And softly you begin to breathe again

I don't have all the answers to your sad prayers
But if I could I'd give you angel's wings
To go where hope is found
With strength to reach beyond
And carries like a song upon the wind

Please don't give up
Please don't you give up
Cuz I believe
Yes, I believe
I still believe... in us

The sound of holding on - almost a whisper
The sigh of broken hearts - a quiet cry
The rain upon your face
Brings gravity and grace
And softly you begin to breathe again

Life is good,life is bad,life lets you down,but it's surely worth living.I may not be thankful everyday,I may complain and I may whine,but I know that wasting time won't help.

You know...I like to watch the city lights through a glass full of droplets in a car while someone else is driving,I like the calendar on my desk and the picture that represents October and I am seriously thinking about making my own calendar,with my pictures,just for myself ... There are so many things that I like but most often I'm too busy worrying about other things or too stubborn to pay attention.Those are the moments when I feel that everything around me is black.(like in the previous journal)

I'm almost 18.The 30th of October wasn't a happy day the last year because my mother had an accident and this year,it will be even sadder because my uncle died.I won't throw a party,nor I want to do that.I think that this whole thing with being 18 is overrated

P.S.:Listen to this beautiful song: [link]

I have no friends.In real life.How do I know this?Well,friends are the ones who support you when you suffer or you're in trouble and right now...I don't see anyone near me.It's like...ooohh leave her alone now,she can't smile,she won't listen to your jokes...she's no good.
The thing is that someone very dear to me passed away.He was only 30 years old and he was my uncle,more like a big brother and I can't pretend that nothing happened.I can't be all smiles and I'm disappointed by everything.God,doctors,life...people.I'm not that kind of person who cries all day long, I tend to hide it all inside and keep everything for myself,but now I just can't.I've got so much anger and I don't know what to do with it.I hate myself for being so optimistic...
He was the one who gave me my camera and always encouraged me to take pictures.This is why I promised myself that I will never give up.It's a bit hard these days,but I will get back on track

About friends...what can I say? At least now I know where I stand.

What do you think about my pictures?Do you like them?What would your top 3 be?
Try be as critical and objective as you can be.

Please help me with this
Thank you

Illness is the most heeded of doctors: to goodness and wisdom we only make promises; pain we obey. ~Marcel Proust